Sunday, January 22, 2006

I am having very hard-time fathoming the reality that it has already been one and half years, and I am still struggling with a research topic. I had such a high expections last year at this time. I was bubbling with ideas about doing research on quantum computation, enrolling into mathematics for graduate studies (one more, of course), and many more. But if your own professor is indifferent toward any idea that is alien to him, and over that if he doesn't believe in you, then there is nothing you can do. Except probably think about ditching him. I am seriously thinking about that now.

Actually another professor right before the winter break started and asked me if I wanted to work with him. He has so many ideas. Some of them crazy, nonetheless they are still ideas. It is better to have some crazy ideas than not to have any. And he seems to believe in me. He even gave me to read some of the research papers he had recently published or is currently working on. They were so abstract and mathematical, that I instantly liked them.

I am caught in the middle now. Switching professors after almost four semesters wouldn't be that good an idea now. I am somehow trying to connect my major professors current research and this other professor's interest together and concoct some crazy research topic for my dissertation.

Qualifier is coming up. Right after I have to completely dedicate myself on finalizing the dissertation topic. It is getting late now.